Well, hubby and I slept in until about 8:30 this morning (thank goodness for tablets and phones to entertain the kids for a little while), so I didn't make it to the exercise class. To be honest though, I wasn't really looking forward to going since I'm pretty sure it was yoga today. I just need to feel energized when I'm exercising. Plus, the thought of stretching like that during my heavy day just didn't seem appealing at all (sorry if that's TMI, but I figure if I'm candid about things like my weight and my failures, I've earned the right to be honest about all aspects of my life). Anyway, I did complete day 2 of the triceps (10 triceps dips) and abs (20 sit ups, 8 crunches, 8 leg raises, 12-second plank) challenges. I've decided to just wait until next month to do the squats. The first week wouldn't be so much of an issue, but as the numbers start climbing, I would be spending so much time doing all these exercises by the end. So I'm just going to focus on abs and arms, which don't get much attention normally.
Well I made two sunny side-up eggs for breakfast (with just cooking spray on the pan) and had a tablespoon of ketchup with them. I had a clementine orange for a morning snack. I had a chicken and avocado wrap (with lettuce too) for lunch. I had a cup of hot cocoa in the afternoon, because I needed chocolate to cope with life. It was some fancy shmancy "Cacao Reserve by Hershey, Mayan Blend" packet that's been on our shelf for who knows how long. I had stir fry veggies for dinner (lots and lots), and some candied pecans as a late night treat.
I spent most of the day working on hat orders that I need to send out tomorrow, but I did make time to take the kids to the park and play for a while. It was also a very emotional day. October is a hard month for us. It has been four years since we lost our son to SIDS. Most days, I manage to function pretty normally, even though that pain is always kind of floating on the edge of my mind. But at times like this, it just all floods back into me and it's hard to keep it together. All I wanted to do was eat away my sorrow, but I stayed strong today. I owe it to my kids to be healthy, and that means I need to break the habit of eating just because I'm sad. I owe it to my daughters to be around for a long time, and I owe it to my son to make the most of my life. And there is the secret to any success I have: I don't do it for myself, I do it for my family.
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